Sorry I haven't posted in a while! I've been really busy.
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That's a lie. I really just haven't had any motivation. Until now, that is.
Lately, I've been thinking a lot about regrets. A good friend of mine once told me something along the lines of this: "No regrets, just lessons learned" It's a great saying to live by, and I try my best to do so. But sometimes that gets really hard.
A while back, I was involved in a terrible relationship. We really liked each other, but our hormones had gotten in the way, to say the least. So, naturally, I became more attached. I started to believe I loved him, which I realize now, I wasn't in love. I was in lust. There is a huge difference. Months went by, he got involved with drugs and alcohol, and eventually, we broke up. He thought I was being too clingy, and decided he wanted to date one of my friends instead. I'd given so much of myself to him, and I'd gotten nothing in return. Just a huge hole in my heart. Keep in mind, this was in junior high. How ridiculous, right? Our society is so messed up. But that's a different story for a different time.
The point of my story is, I was ripped to pieces, and I felt so much regret in my heart, that it took a long time for me to get past it. I realized that there really is no point in regret. It already happened, and there's nothing you can do about it. Some people may never forgive you, but that's not the point. God forgives you. God grieves with you. He feels what you feel. He's there for you. And you should never, ever doubt that.
There's going to be times when you feel like the whole world is against you. Heck, there are going to be a lot of times. But God is always there. From my experience, He can sometimes be the only one there. The only difference is, He will never betray you or leave you for someone else. He had His son DIE for you. How else does he have to prove Himself to you?
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him.
John 3:16-17
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
1 John 1:9
Regret is really common, but it doesn't have to be part of your life. When you hold onto regret, there's no way you can forgive yourself. Ask God for forgiveness. It really is that simple. Getting there sucks though, I know.
Basically, I'm a human and you're a human. I'm not writing this blog to say I'm better than you. Heck, I'm nowhere close. I'm writing this blog to help people who are going through what I am. And I'm not even sure I'm doing a good job. But I'm trying.
I'm going to pull a shrink move and say, if you need to talk to anyone, email me: claudiajaynehall@gmail.com
I don't care if I don't know you. I don't even have to know your name. I just want to be there for people.
So that's all I have for tonight, because it's 1:45 and I am extremely tired.
I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead.
Philippians 3:13
