A New Chapter

17 days until I drive to Russellville and only come home when I can get a ride (being carless is super fun. That's not a spelling error.)

So I've been trying to sort out my feelings, because they're all pretty jumbled up.

Pros:
Living in a dorm
Independence, sort of
Connecting with people easier due to on campus
Finding out how to deal with responsibilities and stress but still rely on God
A program I love with people who love each other
Happiness

Cons:
Cafeteria food
I have to get a debit card....... cash > electronic money
Leaving an amazing, God-fearing man (guess who)
Long distance with said man
Can't borrow my mom's car anymore
Flat campus means I have to exercise even more than I do now
Finding God fearing girlfriends
Fitting in
Living without parents, even though it'll be great sometimes
Keeping an even higher GPA in order to keep scholarships

Blah, blah, blah.

I'm so excited for adventures to the lake near campus. And hiking. And running. And yoga-ing. And being independent and thriving.

I'm so scared for my relationship with God. And relationship with said man. But if I focus on the first one, it'll all be okay.

I'm so nervous of gaining back all that weight I lost. And not getting along with my roommate. And not finding true friends. And not managing money well since I'll have a bunch in the same place. On a plastic card. Right at my fingertips.

Haha, wow that didn't help at all. I'm still confused on how I feel.